A little of me-and a little of right now.

So here I am. Thought I'd give this blog thing a try!
I will try to get something into my about me section on here, but I havn't figured out yet on how to use this.
My name is Lisa. I am a divorced mother of 3 kids. Zack is almost 13, Drake is 7 and my little girl Selina is 5. I have been divorced over a year and a half now, and sometimes it feels like just yesterday, other times it feels like forever.

I have had a dream that slowly built and changed for more than 3 years. I knew several years before that, that I wanted an involvment in pregnancy and birth. Thought I would go a techy route way back then, I had no idea about the world of homebirth. It scared me to think about it although I have always had a passion for what I viewed as natural birth. Always had a bit of a hippie inside of me too, but thats another day.

So I began to read, research and learn. I had a dream of midwifery that seemed impossible. I went through DONA's training to become a doula 3 years ago this spring. Wow. I thought it would be a good stepping stone. I was wrong in a way. Doula work is great work, but it isn't me, not deep down. I chose to not pursue certification with the organization as to leave some freedom of choice in my care. I have still felt that I am not quite confident enough in myself to follow through and actually chase that dream for a good solid, hands on education in midwifery. Never letting go of the thought, chasing every bit of it. And as I have done so my ideas and thoughts and deep feelings on birth have continued to evolve and warp into the direction of peace=beauty , privacy=saftey and hands off means so much more.

Taking us to now. 4 Days ago Carla of AAMI posted her quarterly drawing entry quiz. I was spending a few minutes to myself going through email. This one interested me as it was on multiple pregnancies. So I did some googling, read and learned more than needed to reply, and sent my entry. I didnt think about it for a minute after. Until reading emails after work yesterday. There is was. I just happened to be curious as to what types of prizes she was offering, thinking I may enter again next time. I get to the bottom of the list and there....My name. What! How did that get in there, I thought there was alot more time between that posting of the quiz and the results of the draw. Nope, it was there. My name. $777 off Advance Midwifery Studies. Wow.
I hop on the phone to call my mommy. I must have sounded insane. I decide I had better email Carla and make sure it is real, tell her my thoughts and go from there. She wrote back like iwthin the hour. Said that if I was going to put so much down, I would get the 20% off as well for payment in full discount. OMG. So i bug the ones closest to me. Mom trys to reassure me that I am really smart and strong enough. I get my friend Jeannies thoughts and her drama comes out all the way. And then my man. I expected a little different, a little more cautious thoughts on his part, but it wasnt what I got. He thinks it is ment to be. What else do I do..... Run to Mothering to post. What a great outpour of support from those girls. That is what made me decide I need a blog. My posts are always the length of a book, so this seems best.

Today I replied to Carla's offer. I will be filling out the application and have my paperwork and payment in to her by April 15. I will be a student of midwifery studies. And a student of AAMI.